I guess I am finally getting the hang of life now
This is a deeply personal note but I think this can help you too.
Growth is important for me. perhaps the most important thing for me.
And I have never stopped for anyone or anything to stop my growth.
So I guess if I must talk about life I must talk about what I am chasing.
I am chasing the most important of all growth.
Well what is growth:
For me, growth was a 360-degree exercise,
I must grow physically, mentally, spiritually, socially in all ways all day.
In all those growths there is just one necessary point I suppose, the will to go on, to move, and to be uncomfortable to change shells and live among gods and humans alike.
I thought the moment I decided to stop I will stop growing.
I have so far traveled more than most people I know.
Worked in various jobs and worked creating campaigns and pushing for change.
Created social organizations, created businesses, went to different schools to get different degrees:
I have tried growing in love, understanding various forms of love, passionate-impassionate, lustful-platonic etc etc
I learned that love and especially after the loss of someone you love you can find a part of your soul.
Some taught me sadness, some taught me jealousy, some taught me anger and some taught me loss.
But I did not stop for my lover to catch up with me
In all the forms of love, I have learned, till I guess I got bored of it all.
I did not stop. Except…
I think I am finally stopping…
But I don't think my growth has stopped…
I think I have finally learned to grow into something…
I think this is the beginning of my becoming
For now, growth for me is repetition,
Growth for me is working on the same thing for years and years till I perfect it.
Be it love, be it a job, be it a business, be it on my own body on my mind, on my spirit.
And I guess I am finally getting the hang of life now. And I guess I finally understand growth.