I guess I am finally getting the hang of life now

This is a deeply personal note but I think this can help you too.

Growth is important for me. perhaps the most important thing for me.
And I have never stopped for anyone or anything to stop my growth.

So I guess if I must talk about life I must talk about what I am chasing.

I am chasing the most important of all growth.

Well what is growth:

For me, growth was a 360-degree exercise,

I must grow physically, mentally, spiritually, socially in all ways all day.

In all those growths there is just one necessary point I suppose, the will to go on, to move, and to be uncomfortable to change shells and live among gods and humans alike.

I thought the moment I decided to stop I will stop growing.

I have so far traveled more than most people I know.

Worked in various jobs and worked creating campaigns and pushing for change.

Created social organizations, created businesses, went to different schools to get different degrees:

I have tried growing in love, understanding various forms of love, passionate-impassionate, lustful-platonic etc etc

I learned that love and especially after the loss of someone you love you can find a part of your soul.

Some taught me sadness, some taught me jealousy, some taught me anger and some taught me loss.

But I did not stop for my lover to catch up with me

In all the forms of love, I have learned, till I guess I got bored of it all.

I did not stop. Except…

Except …

Now…

I think I am finally stopping…

But I don't think my growth has stopped…

I think I have finally learned to grow into something…

I think this is the beginning of my becoming

For now, growth for me is repetition,

Growth for me is working on the same thing for years and years till I perfect it.

Be it love, be it a job, be it a business, be it on my own body on my mind, on my spirit.

And I guess I am finally getting the hang of life now. And I guess I finally understand growth.