Dementia, London and A Prayer

It's a really big move considering I lived most of my life in a semi-urban environment in the city of Rajshahi to start off again leaving my amazing job to become a no-one in the City of London.

Rajshahi is beautiful trust me when I say this the trees the humongous river Padma, nothing really compares to how amazing Rajshahi can be and you can feel the heartbeat of nature and its changing season. It's like an attack of nature in the best way possible.

We kind of all sort of worshipped nature in our own way in Rajshahi but that is where I want to talk more about London. One fun fact Rajshahi is the first city in the world to have complete electric public transport it's a story of another time. But well I take people into detours when writing because this is the only way I can think.

I guess on my forth day here at London you can say I am starting to miss Rajshahi Not really. I always love my hometown as I am sure many do and whenever I am drunk I keep talking about Rajshahi as a dream even when I am living in that dream. But that's the thing about homes isn't it. Homes are not just a feeling, its not just something you build, or people its much more, its childhood memories before memories even get translated into language or images in our head. Its a resonance of something deeper. An abstraction of who we are and who we were as we grow as we change as our heartbeats slow down as we age as our smell changes, as our needs and dependencies change.

Guess that is where I want to reach with journeys. All journeys inner and outer I want to reach beyond language, into abstraction from experience from loss from dementia.

London will eventually give me big city dementia which will make me lose words and so I should better note everything as is. Like this tiny apartment at Stratford and the images of bars and smells and taste of fusion food. The extreme poverty at the other end of the spectrum to the multimillionaire row. I hope in all things good and bad i curate that dementia and live like I always wished to do so.

Seeing and touching

Understanding and letting it all sink in.